Failure

A lot of challenges come at you in life, and then so does failure. Failure isn’t new to me. It’s a constant occurrence in my life. It’s a constant reminder that I have so much farther to go if I want to be where I want to be. I make excuses, I say “I’ll do better tomorrow”, and I consistently see myself failing. I am beginning to see it as a lesson revolving around one singular point. This lesson has impacted my entire life and it’s only through experiences and therapy that I’ve begun to understand this lesson and move forward.

Don’t be a fence rider. Let all your decisions lead to a yes or no. Don’t live your life procrastinating. Jump off the fence and start running. If you sit too long, you’ll just grow old without going anywhere.

That is honestly what I’ve learned. I know that I constantly struggle to get things done. I’ve really advanced in work, and done well there, but I’ve struggled to build meaningful personal relationships and I’ve gained an awful lot of fat. Living this way is not healthy, it’s not happy, and it isn’t good for us spiritually.

For a while now, that metaphorical fence has been a lot of things for me. It’s been:

  • Is God real? I constantly change my mind or try not to think about it. I always feel like I haven’t made my decision. I know Jesus said you can’t serve two masters, but I sure have been riding that fence for years.
  • Should I really eat that? I know I need more restraint. I need to have discipline. I always say “I’m going to get healthy and lose a bunch of weight,” and then I do the opposite. Sometimes I even think “if I just exercise a lot more, I could eat what I want and lose weight,” and I know that’s not true. If I’d get off the fence and dedicate myself to a good diet, I know I’d see results.
  • Do I believe in myself? This one’s a little more complicated. I say I believe in myself, and I exert confidence at times, but here I am single and just coming out of my shell after four years of focusing on my career. I know that, during those four years, I’d tell myself all the time that I was going to put in the work to keep my relationships going strong but I really didn’t. I just rode the fence long enough to alienate myself from all my childhood friends and never made new friends.

So now I rise to the challenge. I’ve heard it said before that half a battle is knowing what your fighting against, so I can hope that knowing my struggles will only catapult me to success. See you next post.

Start Your New Year Declaring Yourself Stronger, Healthier, and Happier

Did you make mistakes in 2019? If so, join the club. We meet on Thursdays. No, not really, but I’m willing to bet that all of us fell short of our expectations one way or another.

If you did, then good! At least you had expectations. Have goals for yourself this year, and plan to excel in 2020. You have the opportunity to make a whole decade your greatest. I’m spending my New Years in the gym. Earlier tonight, I made myself a healthy dinner. This year, you don’t have to get boozed up unless that’s honestly your goal. You don’t have to have addictions. Be stronger, healthier, and happier. Head to your local gym and work out. Don’t have a membership? Then get on the damn floor and do some push ups. Can’t do push ups? Jog in place. Just do something people!

Live your life being your best self and buy the hype this year. Sell yourself on being the best you possible.

Feel Better Instantly With This 1 Simple Trick

Like the click bait title? Because you’ll love this 1 little trick – set a bed time. Have a routine.

I know this seems simple, but this is something that I am just now finding out. I started going to bed at the same time every day and waking up at the same time and I sleep much deeper than before. While sleep quantity is around the same, sleep quality has improved exponentially. I wake up every day feeling well rested.

A quick google and research seems to indicate that sleep has strong ties to you cardiac and metabolic health. Just give it a shot. Set a bedtime and an alarm to wake up and see how you feel. This may be a good step 1 on getting fit.

WordPress community – What is your opinion on popular weight loss apps?

I’m specifically asking about healthy wage, sweat coin, and achievement. All promise to pay you for activity and weight loss.

Feel free to comment and discuss any fitness app you’ve had experience with in the past.

Getting Back At It

Gotta keep this short, as I’m typing this from my iPhone before work. I appreciate anyone who decides to read, but please understand that I am typing this for me. This post is an affirmation of my goal, and I am stating the facts:

Fact 1- I started going hard at it 6 months ago. I was also going hard at it a year ago. I went hard at it 3 years ago. I did even better, than those other times, 5 years ago. My continual issue has been discipline and consistency. There are huge gaps, between each attempt at fitness, where I have gotten more out of shape, more gross, more overweight, unhealthier, more unfocused, lazier, and more depressed.

Fact 2- I am the heaviest I have ever been at this point in my life. I weighed myself in at 268 lbs.

Fact 3- I have a long ways to go and I can’t trust every number I see. My scale is basically telling me, “yeah, you’re overweight but look at your body fat %. Only 20%.” The problem is that my scale is wrong and I shouldn’t believe that number. I have since taken body measurements with tape and a caliper and my body fat % is typically close to 30% when I average between my 3 results. Even that may be a low ball number.

Let’s place these facts together, shall we?

I’ve gotten out of shape because I find myself wanting to believe I don’t have a problem. I have trusted obviously faulty numbers regarding my body fat %. I’ve believed “that Three Musketeers won’t be that bad”. I’ve been living day to day without a routine and have had little to no discipline. I’ve made a victim of myself and spiraled out of control.

Today, I tell myself…. I am taking control of my life back. I will develop more discipline. Over the past week, I’ve begun by developing a routine. I now have a bed time, and a time to wake up. When I wake up, I eat breakfast and work out. Then I get ready and often have time to relax before work since I work second shift.

This is going very well so far and I am feeling like I have a lot more energy. I will strive to do more, and I will succeed. I want to, no…. I will be the best version of myself.

Disgusted that I’ve let it get this far out of control, but again… I will take control. I can do it, and I will do it.

Back!

It’s been two years!

I’ve only worked out off and on in this timeframe. I definitely haven’t been blogging a lot. I had the domain maxedoutmuscles.co for a while through bluehost.

Once my domain expired I opted to go .com through WordPress and start the blog back up. I am missing a few posts I made on the bluehost site, but that’s ok. As I said, these things were few and far between.

I would like to introduce myself to anyone new to maxedoutmuscles. My name is Christian Boyles, I am 23 years old. I work at a factory as a supervisor, and in my off time I love to work out. My goal is to ultimately own my own gym, a MaxedOutMuscles fitness center(or maybe named something else), and dedicate my life to fitness.

I will be making an effort to post here at least three times a week. Lots of site changes are going to be made for a better viewing experience. Welcome to my page and feel free to read from any of the hundreds of posts that I have available from 2015.

The Fitness Masochistic Paradox

I’m thinking that getting bulky was exceptionally easy for me.  However, getting lean is an entirely different story.

It seems that there’s a reason why people are always wanting to give up when they are attempting to lose weight on shows like “The Biggest Loser”.  Losing weight takes a lot of discipline!  The reason why gaining weight was so easy for me?  It took consistency and dedication, but no discipline for me.

I would eat whatever I wanted to gain weight.  I’d eat a lot, and gaining weight just depended on me lifting weights at a progressive overload.  Of course, I didn’t care as much about the cardio because I was trying to get big!  That’s not to say I didn’t do cardio to minimize the fat gains.  It just wasn’t top priority, and it was a lot more challenging.

Doing cardio and eating clean?  That sounded brutal.  I’ve done it before, and I honestly thought it sucked.  Oddly enough, that could be because I get addicted to crap foods and not because eating clean is actually horrible.

It does feel like a mission, though, and while bulking required the consistency, cutting is requiring a lot of discipline.  I am doing my best to develop the discipline needed to lose weight, and honestly it feels like some weird masochistic effort.  That is, I’m inflicting all of this pain on myself in the moment during my training and I’m depriving myself of the crap foods.

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..the crap I used to eat provided by FreeImages.Com

So why do I call this masochism?  I like doing it!  It’s a challenge.  I’m putting myself into challenge and I’m going to come out of this a lot stronger than I was when I started..

It’s a paradox because it may be hard now, but it only gets easier as I continue to push myself and succeed at my goals.  Before too long, I will be bigger, faster, stronger and as lean as can be!  I believe I can achieve my goals through a little pain and hardship now…

and you can too!

My mile times are speeding up, I’m eating fewer calories, and I’m beginning to feel like a healthy individual.  Progress is, as always, a matter of consistency and discipline.  I’ll keep grinding, and I hope you do too.

Pushing Through A Hump Day

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I made this transformation photo a couple of months ago!

I think I just have to push through my hump day.  For most people it’s Wednesday, and for me it’s Friday.  I know I’ll be excited for my weekend on Monday.

That being said, I’m content with my schedule.  I just enjoy my Fridays like everyone else and enjoy myself.  Sometimes I even take a day off of the gym.  Today is one of those days.

I know that I’ll have to make up for that so I’m dedicated to working my back and biceps tomorrow.  I want to go all out for bent-over rows and barbell curls!  I’m hoping to hit some new personal records.

On that note, I’m content with the progress I’ve had so far with my strength training.  At this point, I’m wanting to maintain the lean mass that I’ve gained and cut down the body fat.  As I said yesterday, I am making positive steps in that direction by eating better and adding the cardio.

I can’t quit saying how thankful I am to you all for continuing to read my posts and for sharing your thoughts.  I like reading from you because it motivates me, and you often give great advice!

Thanks for reading this update.  Today, again, was my day off and I will continue to push forward and make good progress!

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By the way!!

It’s been a while since I mentioned progress photos, and believe me when I say that they are coming!  It may be another month or two yet, but I have a few progress photos to share with some training logs and in the grand scheme of things I am hoping to make a transformation video.

The video is far off yet as I want to have somewhat of an end result before I begin editing.  Also, I made a free eBook for anyone who is interested but I am not sure how to put it up for download on my website.  If anyone wants to give me some tips or advice, I am all ears!  Thanks!

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I decided to make this for the post.  I’m not sure it shows much the way I edited it, but at least it’s something!  There will be more in the future.

Practicing What I Preach

Almost every day I write a post about fitness, Crohn’s Disease, and life.  Almost every day, I try to share advice that was given to me, research, and my personal opinions on the above topics.  That does not mean that I am a testament to this perfect, idealistic version of me that I am trying to assimilate in this blog.

However, every day I keep in mind of where I’m at and I remember my end goals.  I remember that eating a nearly perfect diet that I believe in will further my goals, that pushing out the extra rep will also help, and that blogging is my form of expression and a means to an end for going the extra mile until I choose to go even further.

Not having these things all figured out oftentimes makes me feel like a hypocrite.  I’m reminded of a quote from Jesus in the Christian’s New Testament:

“Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother’s eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? How can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ when all the time there is a plank in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother’s eye.

That’s Matthew 7:3-5 in the New International Version of the Bible(crazy how many different versions there are!!).  I was raised in a fairly religious home, thus I remember random scriptures often that I sometimes relate to things I’m going through in my life.

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I chose this image from freeimages.com because the bar looked like a barbell

However, if those words were taken literally I wonder if there would be a single person willing to preach.  That’s where Christians believe in grace and moving forward, even when they make mistakes.  That’s where I believe in getting up, even when I fall down, and continuing to blog while simultaneously fighting to improve my life into that idealistic version I spoke of in the first paragraph.

So what is the idealistic version of myself?

Idealistically, I’m going to continue blogging and working out, running, and dieting, studying nutrition and also furthering my career.  I will turn into someone I would proudly call a role model.

I will practice what I preach.

It’s going to happen!  I believe in myself and I know I can do it!  Since I wrote the series on diet last week, I have made a lot of healthier choices.  I’ve been running a lot more and eating cleaner just like I said my character Jimmy would as compared to Carl who only likes greasy, nasty food.

So as long as I talk bad about Carl, I’m going to be a Jimmy!  While practicing what I preach, I’ll continue to keep you posted and share content.